EGD's. Yeah. I've had three already. Tomorrow is my 4th. Enough already. My new walnut-sized pouch has decided to throw things back at me like my sleeve did. I'm still keeping down some liquids, and if I eat and sit really still, I'm okay... Otherwise, I'm again feeding the imaginary baby birds...
Needless to say, my doc said on Friday that I might be developing a stricture again... EGD scheduled for Monday with a possible balloon dilation. I dread the possibility of getting admitted into the hospital again. What recourse do i have if this dilation doesn't work?!? PICC line was mentioned, so was PEG line. DO NOT WANT.
I'm terrified. I am sooo entirely afraid that the forced bypass is going to go all wrong like my sleeve did. I pride myself on a good false front. I'm the strong one. Nope, It's okay. I'm fine. That's really hard for me right now. I need someone to tell me it's gonna be okay. The hubby is a great support, but he's worried. That makes me worried. As usual, I will try and suck it up and act like I'm not worried... and try not to cry infront of strangers...
You're a superstar how well you're managing through all this. You've had a heck of a time and I think you're stronger than you know.
ReplyDeleteIt will all be okay *virtual hugs*
Thanks =)
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