Appointments and Disappointments...

Sooo, I have an appointment with the surgeon this afternoon.  Hopefully I can get answers as to why I have this continuing stabby pain the the center of my abdomen... It's right under my ribcage, which is weird since I now know exactly where my ribcage is.  I can feel it.  Like my clavicles, it's been a looong time coming, but I can actually see them now.  I have bone structure.... Whodathunkit?

I've been eating a little better, but still nowhere near where I'm "supposed to be" at this point.  Still a lot of soft stuff and the occasional Quest bar.  Mostly protein shakes... blech.  Getting tired of those...

Squirreling away my pain meds, I've managed to make a week supply last for two months.  The downside of that is I only take meds if I absolutely HAVEto, so I'm almost always in pain... Yeah, it's a habit of mine.  I hoard meds like some kinda junkie.  I hate taking meds, but I also do not enjoy the stabby pain... I need t fix my mindset on that...

Well, I'm off to get ready for my appointment.  I'll update my sad little blog when I get back this evening  =)

I suck at blogging...

Since I have been stuck as the newly designated CouchLump lately, I haven't felt well enough to sit at the desk and update my sad little blog.  The hubby decided maybe it was time to get a laptop so I can stop making excuses and being an antisocial hermit.  So here is my first update... written on my spiffy new (used) purple lappy.  i have named it LappyFromHell since the drivers were all wiped off of the memory and it took days to download them to an external drive and reinstall them to get the lappy to work.  Then I had to get rid of 769 viruses.  No, that's not a typo. Seven hundred and sixty nine viruses on this dang thing... Needless to say, I wrote a nice letter to the ebay seller...

Anywho, not much has changed for me.  I'm still in a world of abdominal hurt.  My sides seem to feel better if i have more restrictive pants on.  Gravity hates me.  So I'm stuck wearing pants that aren't too big, which now most of my wardrobe is a few sizes too large...  I still have a central abdominal pain, but I'm going to see the surgeon on the 14th, so i guess i can hold off til then.

I am finally paying attention to my protein numbers and making sure i get at least 60g in daily, trying for 80g but most days that's not really possible...  I still don't quite understand why i cant function as well as other people, and it still gets to me some days.  Hopefully we'll get some answers next week...